I hate how life seems to constantly be changing. I love the new people that change brings into my life, but I miss all the people change takes away. Today I am missing all of those people. Moving away from home took away the friends I had here, moving back home took my friends from school, and a mission took away my best friend. I hate that there are so many people who mean so much to me that I don't get to see or talk to anymore...why does that happen?? I don't understand.
I'm tired of missing people. Especially Landon. It has been 8 months, but it feels like an eternity. I am forgetting what it felt like to be in his arms and have him love me. I forget what he smells like and the sound of his laugh. I forget what him telling me he loves me sounded like. I'm forgetting and it breaks my heart. Why do people have to be taken away? I appreciate Landon now more than I ever did when he was home, but I think 8 months is long enough for me to learn that lesson. My heart knows I love him more than anyone in this world, but my head is forgetting why. I hate this feeling. I know he is where he needs to be doing what he needs to, but sometimes I need him too.
